Hello hello!
So, I have so many things I wanted to tell all of you but words just jumble together. I really don’t know where to start and how to tell how I feel inside.
I have mixed feelings. I felt relieved and sad.
I felt relieved because my results were pretty good, I got 1A, 2A- and 1B+ . I know I can do it better but my weak point is I have no confident. I even doubt about myself and my ability to do a particular thing. So this weakness caused me cannot do something perfectly. Any idea how to cope with it?
Remember the girl who back stabbing me? She got 2A and 2A- which is very good for her as she always think that she is the perfect one. ( Honestly, I kinda jealous but I know myself, some assignments I passed up late so teacher give me B+ is very good de) Yep, this shown that she is perfect but her attitude is not really good. I’m not judging her, you will know more if you get to know her.
Me, Her and XXX used to be very closed together. I always share things and taught her some drawing skills because I am not selfish (Haha). That time I was very pleased and felt lucky that I have a buddy that I can share things with. Last semester I don’t know why, after she knew my photography marks was higher than her.. she like changed to another person. She doesn’t talk much with me anymore and she started to say bad things about me to XXX. XXX also started to dislike me.
I don’t really care because I didn’t do anything wrong, I still talk with them like usual but they like trying to avoid me. Okay, its fine. I still have to live my life, my purpose to college is to learning, so I don’t give a damn on what they talk bad behind me because they don’t know me.
Surprisingly, one day, XXX came and talk to me that she cannot stand “Her” attitude. We have a quite serious talk and our misunderstandings were solved. XXX and me started to get close together but “She” doesn’t like it. Then, she like trying to find problem to me. I kept patience. I don’t know why one day she called me and apologized to me that she treated me like that and her attitude was so bad. I forgive her, I’m glad that she said she willing to change.. I think, why not I give her a chance because everyone makes mistake..
I thought everything is going smoothly after all. Not what I expected, really. She doesn’t change her attitude and she getting worse man! She spread stupid false rumours about me to other people. Every times people look at me with some kind of uncomfortable look, some even glare at me like I stepped their tail or owe them money like that.
Then we had a arguement. Not I started one. She called me first, then she crapping that she still treat me as a friend, like very scared she will lost me like that. She aplogized again. I got to tell you that my patience got limit one, I hate people who is so fake! So i retorted back and argue with her. Sorry no cure. I was really upset and cried for few days (Stupid) =.=” I sincerely treat her as my good friend and now she treated me like this. I was really hurt.
We didn’t talk much now. I don’t hate a person forever. When I see her, I still greet her, then she will replied me with the ” lanci” face. Why got such a snooty person arr? Like today, I talk with her new group of friends. When she came in and saw it, her face turned black. Well, I still say “hi” to her and she replied me with her black face. Stupid. And she like to copy how I talk when I present in front of the class, but she is not me, so she couldn’t speak like how I speak to the audience. Dear, even you trying hard to copy me you are not me dear. Just be yourself, perfect girl 
Haiz… why all my buddies are different course =.=”
Anyway, I lazy to compare myself with her. Who cares? The more I care the more I make myself unhappy right? Wasting my energy. I better care about people I loved. So, just let her get all the attention that she wants la.
I’m glad that I didn’t trying hard to be somebody. I just be myself 
And no matter what I am still me.
