MY LOVELY SATURDAY

I got up late today, after gussied up and had my breakfast then I straight off to work.

Arrived at the primary school around 9 something. As usual, I need to carry a lot of stuffs and walk clumsily to the canteen and waiting for the kids to arrived. Not a very long distance though, I have no stamina already, I am breathless . No idea whether is the polluted air caused me have problem to breathe or because I cough too much, my lungs getting weaker and weaker…  That’s why I gasping..

After a few minutes, I order my student to queue up and then I lead them to the computer lab, like the hen leading chick. Ha! Every time, when the kids step in the lab.. it will become a mess! They start talking, chasing here and there, itchy hand touching the computer and so on…

When I try to handle the “mess” in lab, I saw a familiar face…. she opened the door and waved to me with her smile on face.

A woman. The mother of one of my student.

I remember the week before Raya, the mother scolded me because she couldn’t find her son in school. When she saw me, she started to blame and scolded me because she waiting for her son for an hours and she thought her son was lost. So, I explained to her that I ask him to stay back for a while because I wanted to teach him and guide him to get his thing done. Then, she told me angrily that his son don’t know where she will be waiting for him, I should ask him to come out to inform her. ( Hello?? You said he doesn’t know where are you, then how he going to inform you, aunty!?? And I only took few minutes, not 1 hour to teach him la aunty! That’s your responsibilities to inform your son where you going to wait for him, not mine. How I know this??! I’m not part of your family member la Aunty!) Conclusion, to avoid any form of argument and keep my good image; I didn’t retort back even though my heart so want to do that. You know what i did?  I said sorry to the AUNTY. You know how she respond?? She like very shocked that i apologized and then she leaved with her son. WTF…!

Actually I asked the kid to stayed back for a while due to he didn’t pay attention in class, ended up he cannot get his thing done. So I sacrificed my rest time to teach him again, he is not the only one, there are a few kids waiting for me too. Before that, I questioned him whether he is rushing to anywhere and he answered me -No. Then her mother came and scolded me pulak. Alas! I realized, it is hard to be a good teacher. Sigh.

Thus, when I saw the mother waved to me today, I’m like ”Gosh, why I’m so bad luck! what she want again? Scold me? I know I’m going to have another bad Saturday! Aikzzz…I hope I can ran away!”  No choice. I walked to her, she smiled at me. I smiled back..wondering what the hell is she smiling for…

YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID TO ME??!! YOU WANT TO KNOW??? SO BADLY???

Okay, I tell you. The Sun rises from west man! Surprise! She apologized to me! Do you hear me?! Want me to repeat again?? OKAY, SHE APOLOGIZED TO ME!

Well, I didn’t felt extra happy or excited when she said that, I just felt so relieved don’t know why. It’s like.. Hey! everything is okay now, at least someone know I’m a good teacher. ( Cheh! Perasannya aku!) I started to love my job back.

I told her that it is okay. I didn’t put it in my heart, I actually already forgot about that matter ( Honestly, I already forgotten). I told her that I understand how she worried about her son when she cannot find him. So, everything is fine now. I told her no worries. ( Damn! Since when I learned to say those words! ) She smiled at me happily and still kept apologized how rude she treated me last week. Then I also kept saying “its okay” and “never mind”. Hahaha!

Yes, nothing seems so bad after all.

Good day comes after Bad day…. maybe vice versa. =.=”

Anyway, good day is always feeling so good

 

BUKIT CAHAYA (2)

Went to BuKit Cahaya last friday.

This is the third times I been there, I’m a little bored with the place actually. Well, since I got nothing to do that day, I decided to join my sister and her friends… once again visit to this agriculture park where located in the city.

I still can hear some sound of motor vehicle inside Bukit Cahaya. That’s stupid because its a park located in the city of course I can hear it! Next time, I wish I can go to the real forest, it must out of city one! Where I cannot hear any motor vehicle’s sound but I can only hear the sound of nature. Perhaps, we can go to Taman Negara, to experience a jungle life! Try to live like the Tarzan, wear only leaves! Ha!

Imagine I just wear leaves in Taman Negara.. Ha!! I think , everyone is nose bleeding! And the next day you can see my sexy pictures in Tomorrow Newspaper! Don’t forget you can visit this monkey (me) in jail too! Hahaha!

Okay, forget about my nonsense.

So, before we headed to Bukit Cahaya we dropped by at Sabina’s house and gave her a surprise.

It’s a kinda “messy” birthday surprise.. anyway Surprise is still a surprise to Sab! (What am I talking about?? Like a baby blabbling =.=”)

Happy 21th Birthday to Sabina!

Having planned to buy a cake, we bought 21 donuts instead.

These 20 years had been blowing a cake. Since 21 is a special number, let’s try something new on the 21th years birthday- Blowing DONUTS!!! Thanks to our creative mind! Applause!

Sabina is all smile!! She sooo happy and surprised when she saw us standing outside her house like a monkeys. Haha!

Back to the Bukit Cahaya part.

Yea, so we reached. Bought tickets and get inside so happily…

Something happened!!!

We cannot rent bicycle cause is closed!

My purpose to here is to ride a bicycle and they closed!!! Why the hell they open the entrance and they closed the bicycle rental!!! Why not just close everything then?!

I am Speechless.

Two word, Malaysia Boleh! yea..

So we walked instead…

The paddy field.

Gosh, what am I doing?? The way I stand was so ugly..

Cut! Cut! Cut!

I’m like doing a shampoo advertisement… Ha!

Anyone looking for a model?? I am here! Hello! Do you see me? hahah,wtf.

Whoa!! This tree is damn tall… I’m like a tiny ant =.=”

Beautiful Nature

Kar yi emo scene..

Here we in the 4 seasons house. Damn sad la, I never got a chance to see other seasons. Been here 3 times, also showing Autumn. Sigh!

Anyway, I still enjoy it. You look at the pictures you know what I mean.

my Funny face ever..

WE trying to pose funky faces but I cannot suppress my laugh as I looking at my sister’s expression. LOL

Yeah! The nice one. Woots!!!

How sad we cannot ride bicycle but at least we have a great time, laughing together

A LETTER TO MYSELF.

[ P/S: Its gonna be a very long post. I wrote a letter to myself. I know it sounds silly & dumb but who cares? I enjoy writting to myself. Hope you enjoy reading it, if you feel disgust you can just stop reading it. Or you can bring a pail with you, puke right after you finish reading. Hahaha. ]

Dear Rachael,

Hi there! How have you been lately, darling? I know you are in a low spirit now but I am glad that I still can write a letter to you. Is already a month your cough haven’t recovered yet! Please, please take good care of yourself! I want you to be as healthy as an red apple! Promise me, k? I know you will

  I understand why you are feeling down now. I love you so much, really. Sometimes I dislike you when you just keep quiet and swallow everything to yourself. You should learn how to express your feelings to others and speak out your mind to the people you care so much. Why you want to play the game, let people misunderstand you? You thought you complain they will read your mind? No, don’t be silly dear. How they know what you are thinking without you telling them what’s in your mind. They are not mind readers. So stop playing the game, it will just hurt yourself and you will never get any advantage in the end. Try to talk your feelings out, is better than let the silent kill yourself slowly. If you can’t find anyone to share, you can just share with me. I would listen to you like always.

  I am glad that you finally learn how to understand people around you. Don’t ask for a reward. Never look for someone to understand you, the most important thing is you understand yourself. Soon or later, I believe there is someone out there will understand you. You just have to wait and be patience. Hey! Don’t forget that I understand you

  I am proud of you, that you grown up by your own. I’m impress that no one lead you which roads you should take but you managed to make your own choice. I know that you faced various type of problems while you walking through the journey you choose. I ask you,  how you make it through? You answered me that books help you to make it through. You read a lot, book is your teacher. They accompany you always.

  Do you know that you are so wonderful?  I am glad that you manage to paddle your own canoe. Even though you always complain a lot that no one can lend you a hand, you almost wanted to give up, but you take a step back and continue to do it yourself again. Finally, you done everything by yourself. How amazing is that.

  I love you when you know you did something wrong and bad, you dare to confess and apologize. Not everyone can accept your apology due to you hurt them so much. But then, you still can move on your life because you don’t want to live in the past anymore. You always tell me that we should look forward and never look back to the life that you never want to live in. You did that. Yes, you did. I’m happy that you learnt to forgive and forget.

  I know you love singing. You used to sing in front of the crowd. You sing in your room, sing in the bathroom and you never try to sing in front of the people anymore. Why? You tell me you are afraid, your throat went dry when there are thousand of eyes looking at you. But I wonder how you can do that last time. You have to get you confidence back, try to sing to a stranger at least. Don’t hide your talent and waste the gift that God gave to you.

  You used to laugh a lot. Keep that girl. Laugh your lungs out, Laugh your sadness out. I love to see you laugh and smile. I love the sound of your laugh.

I think I do better stop here. I enjoy writting to you. I will wirte more in the next letter. I just want to say that I love you. I hope that you love me too. I hope you know that you are a beautiful person. Yes, you are.

Have a nice day!

Smile always!

 

Love,

Rachael

DON’T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER.

THERE’S NOTHING I HATE MORE THAN BEING JUDGED BY SOMEONE ELSE. You know what I mean- when people make up their minds about who you are and what you’re like just by the way you look, the clothes you wear, who your parents or siblings are, or what religion you are. Yet for some who hates to judged, I used to do alot of it myself.

Why do we judge others, anyway? What is it inside of us that feels the need to decide what other people are like before we really even know them?

Some would say it’s all based on our own insecurities, and maybe they are right. Maybe if I cared less about what other people thought of me, I would be more accepting of others. And the sad fact is, those who are quick to judge are often dead wrong and they miss out on incredible friendship, or more.

How much of a bummer is that? As I look around my circle friends, there are a few who surprise me. I mean, when I first met some of them, I leapt to conclusions about the kind of people they were, and immediately discounted them as possible friends. Maybe they had a weird sense of humor or had really bizarre hair or seemed more interested in material things than I was.

Whatever the reason, I’m so thankful that I took a step back and let these friends show me who they really were and gave myself the chance to let them into my life. I couldn’t imagine it without them.

Sometime judging others happens so quickly after meeting someone, we may not even realize we are doing it. I always keep this in mind whenever I meet someone new, to prevent myself from jumping to conclusion.

I remember a friend bring me to meet up his friends. I don’t talk much the whole night because I kinda shy and nervous honestly. I keep myself very quiet, i don’t know what to say because I scared I say something wrong that might offend them. It doesn’t mean I cannot mix around with them. I do talk with some of his friends. I just need some time to know them better and let myself in if I could. But, my friend just jump to the conclusion that I cannot  mix with this group of people due to am not that kind of person. I am not very happy about it because I really wish I can be friend with them and he just judge me like that.

Some people are shy or act differently around new people, so don’t assume you are seeing every thing there is.

In “A WALK TO REMEMBER“, Mandy Moore and Shane West totally misjudge each other until they end up studying together and fall in love, realizing that their first impressions couldn’t have been more wrong.

Conclusion, don’t judge a book by its cover and never say the grape is sour when you haven’t taste it.

ARGH!!

Guess what is the time now? 4.25a.m

I supposed to sleep like a pig in my bed but I’m roused from sleep.

I’m so angry now [ *shakes fist in anger]

 

1.) I HATE MOSQUITOES!!

I seriously super duper hate mosquitoes! My hatred for it grew hundred million fold! They keep sucking my blood for no good reason at all! Okay, that’s stupid of course they have a reason to suck my blood. BUT the thing is, I sleep with my sister and she never gets bitten!!! The next area is in the living room!! I even get bitten in the living room!! WTF la!! My blood too fresh for you is it?? 5 people in the house why I’m the only one get bitten?!

So annoyed!! I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night to scratch away. I did sprayed Ridsect before I sleep. I almost finish the whole bottle of Ridsect and they never die!!! WTF!! They left all their love bites on my legs, hand and even face! Not sweet at all dear! These marks really pissed me off man.. I got not enough scars is it?! GERAMNYA!!!

Mosquitoes are very strong now! SHIT!!! Stupid mosquito coil is just so useless! Can just throw it hardly into the dustbin!! How can I stop these stupid idiot Dracula(s) for producing their next generation?! Their generation seems very scary now!!

Okay fine!! I’ll go to the market later to find whatever I can kill mosquitoes!! Bless me that I won’t get Aedes!

 

2.) I HATE MY SKINS

I hate my sensitive skin la! Why you so sensitive one??

Why didn’t you eat the lotion that I feed you?? Arghh..!! Now you are as dry as the dry leaves..

 

3.) I HATE MY HOUSE

Who ever been to my house, you can use your eyes and see la. The front yard full of things.. inside my house, the area near the staircase also full of things.. storeroom also full of things. THEY ALL ARE MY DAD STUFF LA! No idea why he likes to keeps rubbish! Mom used to nagged him about this and he retort back rudely.  

I don’t know why he loves to collect things outside the house. Even a broken radio, he also bring back home. Sigh. And sometimes he not happy that we donate books and clothes for the charity. What is in his mind man?! I wonder whether people who has low-educated got this kind of stubborn minds?

That’s the reason why there are so many mosquitoes living in my house la. Haiz…

 

4.) I HATE MYSELF SOMETIMES

Well, don’t get me wrong. I love myself a lot!!

I just hate a part of me when I’m being so stupid and idiot. Ahhh! I can’t believe he read it. OMG!! AhHH!!!

I don’t know whether is a good thing or a bad thing lah. I just felt that I am so dumb. So malu man!!!

Ahhh!! I should LAUGH out loud or Cry out loud??

 

Okay la, my whole body is very itchy now. I’m off to take a shower.

Ciao!

LESSON LEARNED

Lesson I learned today.

1. Do not write when you are angry.

2. Do not write when you are emotional.

3. Do not write when you are horny.

4. Do write when you are happy.

5. Do write when you want to share.

 

OMG!!! aHHH!!